breaks up hurts me so much

yuppz.... e 3rd dae in sch...z... inaz.....

3rd dae of schz....
7-07-2004

hmmz... itz e 3rd dae of schz.... my frenz having been askin me whther am i copin well.... whther can i face u? yes and no.... i guess i am trying to cope wit my studies but no, i still cant get over u. yet. i kne u feels tht i mabbe acting a little funnie sorrie.... i kne u feels tht i have been avoidin u... but sorrie i juz went out of words whn we exchange glares.... i didnt break down in class or lecture because i kne the more i look sad the more troubled u mite felt.... i didnt wanna make a scence also..... tht y patz n angela was asking me.... they tout i was doin well... but tht nt true.... i am struggling.... darzy... i dnt blame u.... but i hope u can understdz me... juz gif me sometime i will tune back to friends mode.... i hope we can at least be good frenz at least?
i miss you n i really love u alot.
i mabee smiling but deep down i'm crying.... juz tt i dnt wanz my frenz to worry.
i sensed no chance of salvaging this relationship but i do wait for you.
i mabbe a retard but i guess i'm just too blinded in love.