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ina.... i kne u r gg thru a very hard tym now.... yeah and this is juz somethin tt u wan to read.... i hope u r feeling better....

was browsing thru mt hi5 eariler on n tout yeahz... this are some of e things tt u mite wann to read, thn u'll kne y ina.

= a nEw dAe, a DiFfz bEgInnIngz =

2nd day liaoz.... haha everything is still so fresh in my mind.... i kne i still loves u alot n am missin u rite now... but i guess everything will juz have to change. n i have to learn to move on.

e thing tht i regrted was we tok thingz out too late.... both of us kept things in slient. thn towardz the end u found tht i have been running away. and i found u have been heckin also. why didnt we have a long tok eariler? n why didnt i plck up e courage to? n y didnt u? i wish for a chance but i guess is of no use. u have yr mind set. and i'll juz follow. i only wantz u to find yr happiness and be happy.... every little bangalahz stuntz tht we do. i'll remz it for long. u will always have a place in my heart.
but no used crying over spill milk le.. i kne wat i wanz izzitnt gg to make u feel happy, therefore the best solution is e one tht u have tout abt it. i juz wanna let u kne, i have not been waitin for tht day, i juz hope tht day wldnt have ever come, but i'm wrong.

i'm juz crying n cryin whevaz i think of u, remz e thinz tht we have done, c e thingz u bought me for.... yeahz, no doubt i cried but i kne at least u have loved me. done alot of thingz which i nber had tried b4. althru yr my dream guy but i'm not. i'll still live my life well probably not so well but i'll try okiez.... thingz r tough 4 me to handle nw n i guess u will be too. kne wat ytd we were so fated..... we got off diff train but reached bradz at the same time. mabbe fated brought us together..... guess it juz destroy whn it comes to me.

i cant say i'll get over in a yr or so. mabbe 2 yrz time whn we grad. but it also saddenz me alot if we gradz.... i guess we wont be seein each other.... but i still hope u will ask me out for movies! hahaz.... i such a moive fantic.... haiz... movies.... u r e only bf tht i have watch n enjoy so much moive witz.... guess e bai liu li bai hui bu hui kan we wont be watching together le. hahaz... moviez.... f0od.... haiz..... deyz r gg to be kept in my mind... my precious pastime....

but darz.... i kne i'm gg to get jealouz if i c u ardz with otherz galz. but i'm gona be alrite! haiz. time will heal me, u dnt have to worry whter i will miz my mr rite. if he here i'll kne. if he's really my mr rite. he will be. i'm sorry if i have caused u much disturbance.... really sorry... zhen de tui bu qi.... hou tou gomentasai.... but i kne is because i loved u too much get hurt ezily.... but u help me 2 c my mistakez clearer i have wake up... mabbe If i've any future relationship i will defina. have phobia but i will kne watz rite for me to do.
1 thingz for sure i nber regretted knwing. even thru we only knwn each other for a couplez of mthz. u painted colours in my life n yeshz there r sad colourz too but happy n sweet colourz too.... if we evaz have e chance of gettin back together.... hahaz... fat hope ritez... i cant say i'll wait for u.... i kne u wouldnt wanz me to. be i'll defina. hold a light for u. i may takes time for e time to go but yeahz tht me. i wont wanna make u feel bad or troubled. dont have to worry for me alrite? i'll take care of myself. even i knw u as a compelete stranger, u still winz n wroth my love. i mite not be. but i'll ALWAYS BE HAPPY IF YOU ARE HAPPY.

wellz.... i hope u will find yr happiness~ yr life yr love one. remz. to invite to yr weddin! frenz ritez? hhaa ya la n tell me when u have a gf already la thn i dnt have to think whther u r attach or not. hahaz.... i wanz the bunny i dnt mind abt his legz i simply juz adorez the bunny!

thingz changez i'll 2. but i'll be strong n fine. juz dnt woorry abt me worry for my IT modulez worz..... ahahz i think i'll need help! u muz be 24/7 ready durin examz periodz! haha tht if u dnt have a gf la. but have also help me a bit la k? hahaz!

gUess i wldnt have e courage to change my status, i'm too z0mbIe now.... i dint slept well laz 9z.. i'll wait for u to change yr profile.... let me have my laz chance of typin nini n darz darz.... i cant call u tht liaoz. arghz it simply hurtz me. i'll try k? haiz. i dint want thingz to turn out like tht i tout we wld tok thingz out. true we have tok for alot of timez but we nber have a true n long talk. this i wat i learn from this relationship. i think i'm too lost in u, i loved u too much which i didnt kne will cause so much trouble to us.

.: e laz of zndAriniz = d@rz dArz && nInIz = :.
>mUackz muaCkz<
i love u. and i will miss u.

-bunzy journal. 6-14-2004 11:20 PM -