journal

ina-dey~ as promise.... my journals... i havent got e tym to more all to my blog at once... comp kept hanging laa.... i'll update it slowly....
well but i hope.... by now u r feeling better now....
it mite be a happy ending after all.... =D chill aye?

=* *~....In LIFE, LOVE is NEVER planned nor does it happen for a reason....~!* *=

bunzy journal :
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@: 6-22-2004 9:12 AM

i'm totally down totally lost without you.... i kne u are tired.... but i really love u alot.... i kne where the problems lies and i kne how to solve them.... dont u think when we first got together we dnt have this kinda problem? is because i really love u too much u meant alot to me tht y this problem arise..... little things u do i cant hurt sad thn we will quarrel... the reason being is because i love u too much.... but if u kne me... u kne i sad or brust out a while thn okie liaoz.... haiz..... i look at the thing u use one dollar coin ti cum for me one... denz i got this mixed feelingz.... both sad and happy.... i suddenly feel like eatin chocolates but i kne i cant call u and tell u already.... i kne i cant call and tok crap idiotic things to u liaoz.... i cant hug n kiss u.. cant lie on yr chest cant smell u... yr curry smell hahaz... cant watch moive wit u.... cant cruddle up with u liao cant shop with u cant juz have a moment with u cant slient with u liaoz.... no.... all these thingz gone liaoz.... nopEyz wayz i can get them back liaoz.... so sad so sickening.... and every tout of it i blamed myself.... why i let things happened this way..... even i see yr online i wont dare to tok to u.. i am afraid tht i mite fan u more.... i hope fate tht bought us together can pull us back too...... for i really kne where the mistakes lies.... am willing to change.... everydae i almost cried at the tout of u.... i dun wanna let u knez.... no used.... u old me whn we change our rings we can hang it on our hp but i guess..... i will be waiting for this dae.... i hope u didnt throw yr ring away.... i kept mine in a e box u gave .... oh please... i dont wanna be so upset everydae.... y didnt u gave me an accurate answer whether you love me or not.... why did u gave me a dunoz....? why i meanz.... but now i wouldnt dare to ask u liaoz.... i am trying to adapt to the life without you.... i really miss u alot my d@rzy d@rz....

~thingz u said in e past were juz expire sweetz..?~