journal from my hi5

yeah..... read on gurl.... it lyk abt a week after....

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6-26-2004 5:26 AM

i still cant get over.... cant let it juz go like thtz.... i continue gg swimming today. i reached there at ardz 6 swam for 15-20 minz only.... it was juz too crowded.... so many pple swimming... so i juz went up and bathe.... hahaz.... the kids were proz.... deyz swam well.... they swam butterfly style worz.... oh my oh my.... so strong heez.... well since i havent been swimming much i decided tht i shld do some other form of execrising, thus the tout of walkin home struck me.... yeahz..... i took the way.... the way my darz darz used to cycle me home tht route... i tout i can hang on and dont cry... but i was wrong..... everything juz came back into my mind....before i kne it i was crying..... i dnt wanna to cry.... but no i cant evrything tht used to be can no longer be e same again.... the road we used to cycle on has been mended.... it is more ez to cycle on already. hahaz... was so happy but but.... i hope and wish tht u can cycle me home againz.... hahaz.... haiz.... when i went down to the ntuc therez.... haiz.... my heart aches againz.... we used to buy food from there and cook.... rememz.... all our da chan! hahaazz..... hmmz.... i kne.... yr not heartless..... cant sae yr selfish..... i kne u can feel secure or provide me with it... but all these we have to walk hand in hand to solve it.... haiz... i find myself repeating thz again... mabbe for one thing tht i regret.... it will be this... nt having a chance to work things out again.... haiz... althou i really miss u much.... but i guess.... i have to accept things this way.... i kne... u find tht we r more happier nw like this.... but i am not... i still cant handle..... i cried againz..... but but.... dont worry.... remember i told u, if this makes u feel happy, it will be the same for me also.... i kne there's a saying " if u loves the person u muz let thm go' yeahz it is true.... but it is easier said thn done.... oh my almost a week plus le.... darzy..... i still cant make it!! help me!!
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hmmz... tym is really the best healer in all relationship.... ina.
heez.... all thou u cant have wad u wannz but be glad tt u once have n am e girl who went thru this very special n maigical period with him tt not all gurlz have e chance to. be glad tt he once pay attention n cared for u. u. u. u.
u enjoyed the feeling tht he doesnt shows to other gurlz....
relationships r hurting when one party rly loved n hope to be with another but e other party do not share e goals as u pictured.