Just smile it all away!

Don't fret or be dis-hearted. When the whole world around you don't seems to work out. Just smile and relax. Cus you know it's going to be for the better soon.

Perspection

I don't know. But sometimes you just need a influential person and a weak minded person to spoil your day.

Wrong

And you call yourself a friend? That's so ironic and contridicting

:(

Day 2 of emo-ing. I'm nor that tough as I look on the outside. Go away sadness. You came at the wrong time. Making me feel so much happier when I was in the last 5 years.

Everything seems so different my companion I gone. My foodie and travel companion.

Dear diary

Dear diary,

You never fail to be by my side and allowing me to whine big time.

I hate this feeling of uncertainty. I hate te feeling of feeling regret even more.

I need a warm shoulder to lie on. A sturdy chest to borrow my fat face into it. Then where are you now? :(

Knock knock!

Hi hi. The one are you out there somewhere? Or have I made the wrong decision and brushed you away?

Can you come to my rescue now? I wanna take things to another level.

Scattered heart now. Pls look for me soon.

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Phase 1

I can't help but wonder is that it between the both of us? Why am I feeling so shitty right now.
I guess the initator of the break up is not necessary the one with the least hurt. In fact, in this case, I feel pretty much depressed.

Is this wad that's keeping you from booking the tw tour?

I don't know. But the strong facade is slowly fading away. I need someone who is willing to listen to my woes over again until I'm heal.

Tell me, am I silly? Making such a decision?

is this really what i want?

really? is this what i really want? am i really happy? why do i feel like im going to tear now. not tears of joy, thats for sure.

just the way you are

i would smile in love if someone sings me Bruno Mars' just the way you are.

tells me im amazing just like how the lyrics are and i would melt =)

for fear or for fear of regrets?

then again it happened again, should i accept it again and continue with the relationship? but is this relationship heading to anywhere? what are the checkpoints that i need to know or check? seriously i'm really plain dumb at this. i need someone to guide me, cause im a blur dude, who seriously has no clue what to do. i guess im dumb?

have you really thought about whats in for us next? you kept telling me our next steps is proceed on to our future. but where's the plan? words are cheap. actions are gold. do we have anything joint? no. have you changed? no. whats so hard to listen to me what i need? whats so hard to just care alittle more for me? why do i always have to repeat myself? why are you always offing the chats away when im ard,even though you said you wont? and pls, you are just chatting with a guy frens, whats there not to know? you made everything seemed so fishy. i seriously havent gotten over that incident thou. i really dont know what happened that day. you cant even give me a proper ans. and you ran into the toilet to delete msges? i dont even know wad they were till now. you promises? they dont seemed to stay or proved themselves do they?

i'm seriously very upset about it. its been like 5 yrs.. it is suppose to end like that. would it be harder the next time?

i guess you would be able to find someone better, more suitable for you then me. i guess i sux big time. lets not waste each other time anymore.

you will always be part of my memory for that wonderful moments that we have spent tgt =) i know you will be better, pls pray for me that i would be able to find another man that i can rely, love and trust for all, and he would be able to love, take care of me and a honest man that i would not have no fear for him.

you were really sweet back then.

blackberry

Trying to blog using my blackberry!

i want it!

i want it! working for it! hope i can get it!