for fear or for fear of regrets?

then again it happened again, should i accept it again and continue with the relationship? but is this relationship heading to anywhere? what are the checkpoints that i need to know or check? seriously i'm really plain dumb at this. i need someone to guide me, cause im a blur dude, who seriously has no clue what to do. i guess im dumb?

have you really thought about whats in for us next? you kept telling me our next steps is proceed on to our future. but where's the plan? words are cheap. actions are gold. do we have anything joint? no. have you changed? no. whats so hard to listen to me what i need? whats so hard to just care alittle more for me? why do i always have to repeat myself? why are you always offing the chats away when im ard,even though you said you wont? and pls, you are just chatting with a guy frens, whats there not to know? you made everything seemed so fishy. i seriously havent gotten over that incident thou. i really dont know what happened that day. you cant even give me a proper ans. and you ran into the toilet to delete msges? i dont even know wad they were till now. you promises? they dont seemed to stay or proved themselves do they?

i'm seriously very upset about it. its been like 5 yrs.. it is suppose to end like that. would it be harder the next time?

i guess you would be able to find someone better, more suitable for you then me. i guess i sux big time. lets not waste each other time anymore.

you will always be part of my memory for that wonderful moments that we have spent tgt =) i know you will be better, pls pray for me that i would be able to find another man that i can rely, love and trust for all, and he would be able to love, take care of me and a honest man that i would not have no fear for him.

you were really sweet back then.