look at moi

hi diary,

feeling kinda upset lately. i felt neglected and sort of misunderstood.wont the person just listen abit more to me, pay a little bit more attention to me? recently, i felt that we probably have just drifted further. i duno why, probably im not as a fun person to be with?not that entirely understanding, or which ever it may be. i tried my best to amend the difference but i guess i aint that cool enuff.

i wanna things to go back to the way it is. i duno have i said or done anything wrong. probably i just shouldnt be so proactive. it may appear that we all shld always talk things out, it may seems that its is good to talk it out but it aint so if the other party isnt on the same frequency as you. i just wanna know where have we gone wrong. we are so so distant already. i dont want it to be that way. tell me whats wrong so i wouldnt feel so upset.

after this incident, i think i wouldnt wanna care so much, i wouldnt wanna be so real if i know it will sour up us. if only you would understand me more and see from my side of view. of late things have kinda changed. i think we shld cool off abit, i hope u will contact me.

probably its not always so good to be str forward to someone u love and trust. i think.

well, i guess only time can heal and probably push things back on track. i just hope for the best. i will do my best to do whatever i can. thats what i can do now.

pls dont have a misconception of me, im not what you or others think i am. stop looking down on me, i know im not that of an interesting person, not that of a smart ass or charmy dreamy girl. but i a person who would show my care and corncern in another way. maybe to you its not enuff but i really did put in effort to do so. all i can say is i always put in extra effort but just that i didnt show it out, some things that i do for you may seems simple but it aint so simple after all. its like an opportunity cost?

whooo hoo! enough of rantings and the teary woossy entry! im feeling so much better now and i know things will go to the better soon. its just the normal tough and growth period. yeah yeah endure it and i will get through it!


loveeee!